A look back at 2004

A look back at 2004

Why do we have 365 days, 7 days, 4 weeks, 12 month and a year? How is it that the earth completes its rotation around the sun in exactly one year? How does it that the earth completely spins in 24 hours? The world is so amazing when we think of it. Time is exactly in order with the physics of things. And man is trodding along to catch up or simply ride along with it.

Each end of the year we are left to ponder the last 365 days of our lives. Time can just evaporate in an instant and we are left to see what marks marks have we left, lessons we learned, mistakes we’ve made and the milestones of our lives.

As I look back what and see the 8760 hours that has passed. I am only left with a grin on my face. Somehow I can only laugh at what happened and woudn’t care less weather it was good or bad. What is important is that I made some CHOICES and exercised my free will. Have taken some RISK to see where my desire would lead me and also made some MISTAKES along the way that clearly made a lesson to mark on.

I spent 2920 hours dreaming what I want to happen in my life. I cherish those dreams as they are my guide, my roadmap to where I’m headed. These dreams are the blueprint of my reality. They are my motivation for living and the energy that gives life everyday. Without them I would stumble lost in this reality.

1460 hours of this year I spent on the road. Wether going to work or traveling to distant places, wether with strangers or with friends, the road is the setting of our movement. We bipedal beings are in need of these pathways, how many of them maybe, we trod in familiar or less travelled ones or simply make new roads to undiscovered planes. But wherever it leads, the scenery is always nice to behold.

4380 hours I spent living. Interacting. It is truly in people where we find life and nature where we find comfort and in interaction we find color. We laugh with friends, cry with them, share our thoughts and quarrel at times. We meet new people and we loose some as well. We trust, we love and we hurt. We play a drama which changes and shapes us.

We have time, but how do I measure the EXPERIENCE. I can clearly state each activity I did each month of the year, my accomplishments, my moments of laughter my times of hurt, but my memories are not confined in the limits of time or the physicality of my being. Each time I recal in my mind, each exciting travel with my Lakbay Friends, the challenges of work, complexities of relationships, of loving, of hurting, of trusting and betrayal, on letting go of people and trying to forgive, of taking risk and enjoying success, I relive those moments. And these whole experience, 365 days of it are all me in the present moment. A collective of who I am now. I have no regrets, wether I made mistakes along the way, made some wrong decisions, cried even. I hold them tight with me for I am what I am. I do not put on a face just to fit in. I act based on my dreams and ideals not what other people or society dictates. I live how I chose to live.

Now the new year begins. And it is a symbol of starting over. 2004 was really evenful and fruitful. It is time to build new dreams and new directions and set new goals to live with in the year of 2005. Happy New Year!!!