I’m burnt out! My biological clock has gone haywire. Much like having a sudden jetlag without traveling to another part of the world. The week has been my busiest and damn I’m not getting paid enough for this. Two overnights in one week with a zombie-like consciousness after lack of sleep. Aarghh! Not that I don’t mind working this hard but if you’re supposed to be somewhere else with other things to do, it becomes so much of a hassle! Geez. I don’t intend to torture myself like that.
I’m beginning to think I made some wrong decisions. Just recently I got offered a job by a Japanese IT company that offers 60% more of what I’m getting right now. But the prospect of going back to the web industry and staying in the office for a 9-6 basis just give me shivers again and felt clasutrophobic inside the 4 corners of an office room. Though I had a chance to go to Japan for a training, I turned it down last minute. Stupid me? Even if it’s just 15 min from my home.
Beore that I got another job offer as a consultant offering 40% more of what I’m currenlty getting. What I like is it’s close to home again and I get a flexi time with it. But gong back to web, not that it’s bad, but I felt that I might succumb to eternal boredom.
And way before that I got another unexpected job offer from Riyadh on an IT company for a Senior position was sent in an email. It offers 100% more of what I’m getting here, and I don’t have to spend anything on getting there. I declined the first time. Of all the countries Saudi Arabia seems last on my mind. But looking into it more there was opportunity to explore another culture so apart from us. But no dating? Or traveling? Or music? Or Cinema? left me feeling constrained. I did decide to try it later on but I guess I’m just to damn slow to respond and maybe they took another.
There are lot of opportunities I’ve passed up this year. Maybe I’m just not the “Being an employee” kind. I don’t want any boss staring at my back nor stay confined in an office area. If you have read any of Robert Kiyozaki’s works, you’ll know that “Being an employee is the riskiest thing to do”. It made me think a lot right now, of the direction where I’m going. I can never find a perfect job because I can never be an employee.
Ferdz Decena is an award-winning travel photographer, writer and blogger. His works has found print in publications such as Singapore Airlines’s Silver Kris, Philippine Airlines’ Mabuhay, Cebu Pacific’s Smile and Seair InFlight. He has also lent his expertise to various organizations like the Oceana Philippines, Lopez Group Foundation, Save the Children and World Vision, contributing quality images for their marketing materials.
